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Post by Roan Varangr on Mar 23, 2021 3:10:52 GMT -5
Roan was always a bit more on edge when a raiding party was due to return home. He had gotten enough of a reign on working independently by now that he didn't dread it. Even so it wasn't pleasant, wondering if everyone made it back safe, wondering if he might have to perform some burials, wondering if his brother had been reckless. Ever since Espen's wife had passed Roan had noticed the little changes, the way that he came back more banged up, the extra ale, the subtle change in his tone. While Roan wouldn't say he was close with anyone, he was perhaps closest to Espen.
He stood in just inside the entrance of the hut. It was fairly ornate as far as Lutra builds went these days. A bit of a sturdy yurt with tapestries and various wool comforts to keep the autumn wind from cutting too deep. It was large enough to hold space for fire pit, a small healer's apothecary, a small table and room for about five men to lie. He rarely needed to tend that many patients in his hut...but there were those among them that hungered for more raids...perhaps war even.
no one watched the figure of a tall man in layers of draped robes, and a fur cloak with his eyes cast toward the edge of the camp. Roan was used to being ignored until his services were desperately needed. There was already a flurry of activity as the raiding party made their way into the camp, welcomed by loved ones and elders alike. His dark almond shaped eyes searching the crowd with precision until they found the man in question. A raven flew over head of the returning men and alight on Roan's shoulder before he retreated back into the yurt. He knew he had scolded the man enough that he needn't wait long for a visit. The shaman would be waiting at the table when Espen arrived.
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Post by Espen Varangr on Mar 23, 2021 3:28:21 GMT -5
"Tvold, I told you that are would feel a lot better with a new hand."
"Did you see the size of that dog? Like a bloody bear!"
"No, I stabbed him last so it was my kill."
"Husband, you missed out on a splendid evening!"
Espen walked through the center of the group, listening to the excitement and hubbub ebb and flow around him. Normally he was at the front of it all but he'd been feeling a bit...morose with all the impending responsibility. It almost had him thinking about the future more than the moment he was living in. Which was the point of course but it was all a bit scary. He was excited too, but...he would miss this. Not that he couldn't and wouldn't continue to lead raids, but an Elder was supposed to put their clan before themselves.
He limped slightly, but not from a new injury. Between the cold and the clouds overhead threatening rain or maybe hail, his leg was bothering him again. It hadn't helped in the raid but of course most of the combatants they fought was plucky farmers or villagers with a poorly placed backbone. But an unfortunate step or unforseen pain had shifted his footing and allowed the lucky fellow to get a blade to his side. It only brushed the skin (an understandment but it wasn't deep) but it was better than hitting anything vital. Espen was more concerned with the holes in his shirt.
As much as he was a bit lost in his thoughts, he still had enough mind to enjure anyone seriously hurt came with him to the shaman. Thankfully no one seemed much worse off than him and most could handle that on their own. He limped to Roan's hut and didn't hesitate to enter.
"Hey, little brother," he called in greeting as his eyes adjusted to the dimmer light. "You missed out on all the excitement," he added with a grin as his gaze settled on Roan at the table. Espen moved to join him, gratefully taking a seat with a groan, happy to be off his leg.
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Post by Roan Varangr on Mar 23, 2021 22:33:47 GMT -5
Well it seemed that the injuries were better than he feared but still enough for concern. He supposed he should have known the leg would give espen some trouble given the season. That could be remedied with a salve easily enough. It was the stab that worried him. Even shallow wounds could festor. "Good to see you Espen, I hear that a lot." He replied with a small laugh as he watched Espen sink onto a chair. "Can't have been any more exciting than usual since only you are here." He rose from his chair slowly to come around the table to get a better look at the man. A small frown formed on his face at the obvious stab wound. "right, let's have the shirt off then." He reached out to help the man out of his now damaged shirt. For all his joking and his own apathy toward the raids he could tell that Espen was...less thrilled than usual. He didn't have any reason to suspect that the raid itself was the issue.
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Post by Espen Varangr on Mar 24, 2021 0:41:44 GMT -5
He smiled. He probably heard it a lot because Espen almost always greeted him that way, at least when he was in a good enough mood or not so injured he couldn't behave like his normal, playfully annoying self. He shrugged and winced at the action. "I like you more than everyone else." There were a few other injuries, but nothing anymore exciting than his own. It was both a blessing and a disappointment, but he wasn't so worried about that.
Espen pressed a hand to his side. Not vital or not, it hurt and had been bleeding freely for long enough that his tunic was stuck to his side. Removing his simple leather protection was simple enough but the rough tunic hurt. "Easy," he hissed in pain, wincing as removing the shirt ripped the new scab open. "I like this tunic," he added, as if his discomfort was from the mistreatment of his clothing rather than bodily pain.
Eira was going to be annoyed when he came home bleeding, and he wasn't in the mood to deal with her at the moment. He was fine and would be more than capable of going hunting tomorrow for the ceremony the day after next and he didn't need his slave turned friend worrying over him any more than she already was.
He braced himself on the chair, leaning to one side as Roan inspected the injury. "Do you think I'm old?" he asked suddenly. He wanted to feel out his brother on what he thought of him becoming a council Elder but he wasn't sure how to phrase that question seriously.
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Post by Roan Varangr on Mar 24, 2021 2:18:19 GMT -5
Roan ignored his brother's indignant concern for the tunic. "It'll be seen to." He mumbled considering between himself and espen's servants it would be easy enough to mend and clean. Looking over the new fresh-er wound he was glad to see evidence that the man hadn't lost too much blood over it and that wound seemed relatively clean.
Just as he was thinking of which salves to fetch, the sudden question caught him off guard. His brow rose and he regarded Espen's face for a moment. "well....you aren't young." He replied in a ribbing way. "But you will live many more years if the west wind wills it." He stood back a moment with a contemplative face. It was partially his job to read into such things. "Are you.....worried about tomorrow's ritual?" He himself was a bit nervous. It was his first time having to perform such a rite without their father's guidance. He would have the full brunt of the other elders eyes this time.
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Post by Espen Varangr on Mar 24, 2021 2:43:49 GMT -5
"Arse. You had to think about that a lot," he observed with a snort. He probably should have expected as much, of course. He wasn't young. But he was hardly ancient enough to warrant the respect some of the other Elders commanded, nor their knowledge. "May the wind will it indeed," he grumbled, mostly as an expression of his irritation at the "not young" comment, and less in any sort of formality.
It was Espen's turn to be caught off guard, though he supposed he had wanted Roan to figure it out. He was just surprised it was that easy. Was he really that simple to read? Probably, even if they hadn't grown up together. "Not worried..." That wasn't the right word. "It's a lot of responsibility," he explained. "An Elder. Not...formally, but I'm expected to be a pillar of the community. Like mother." She was still an Elder still, after all. And an active hunter. She wasn't unreasonable or disapproving, but she was...their mother. He wrinkled his nose unconsciously in thought. comparing himself to her was partly what made him feel...not young.
"Makes me glad you'll be there," he added, glancing over at Roan with a small smile. Having his brother in charge was reassuring. It wasn't father, but he had grown closer to Roan than he had been to their father. He realized belatedly why Roan might have chosen the verb he had. "You'll be fine," he assured.
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Post by Roan Varangr on Mar 24, 2021 3:22:39 GMT -5
It really hadn't been hard to guess what was on Espen's mind considering it was also on Roan's mind. He was still not the best at 'bedside manner' but he was trying. Even so he knew that Espen would be much more 'fine' than himself. He shook his head with a small smile "You already are a pillar to this community, Espen." He retreated briefly to search about his small shelf of earthen pots and brought one to the table. "My home is of course open to all of our kin....but you know that it has always been more open for you." He stood in front of Espen with folded arms and a serious look. "Your head isn't filed only with the sound of a sharpened blade like the others. That sort of wisdom isn't easy to come by." He took a damp rag and gently cleansed Espen's stab wound "We both have big shoes to fill on our paths but at least we can walk it together." He added in a more reassuring tone. Espen still had mother to mentor him and he would likely have a heavy shadow to step out from under when she did pass. Even though Roan hadn't heard much complaint about his handling of the shamanic duties he knew there were some who quietly wished it were still his father manning the hut.
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Post by Espen Varangr on Mar 24, 2021 3:41:18 GMT -5
Hearing his brother call him a pillar to the community was both encouraging and daunting. There! That was the word! Not worried, but overwhelmed with expectations. He expected himself to do so much and it felt impossible in mother's shadow. He imagined that was even harder for Roan. Atrus had been well regarded, even for a shaman. Espen expected a lot of that had had to do with mother.
He took the momentary reprieve to relax in the chair, watching his brother move about the familiar space. "And I've made quite the habit of visiting," he observed with a bit of a joke. For minor and major injuries. But also just to talk. "Of course not. Most would argue it is full of drink most of the time," he snorted derisively. More so recently, they were right. But he controlled himself well enough. Roan was right now. Espen didn't feel himself to be the most intelligent man out there but he had heart and wisdom to spare. Usually.
Espen grit his teeth at the cleaning and nodded. "It means a lot to me, having you there," he expressed aloud. "You know I'll fight anyone who complains otherwise." He knew some of the rumors and looks Roan got. Sure, he often teased his brother but that was what they did. He wouldn't stand for others putting him down in favor of a dead man. It was one thing to look down on his station or lack of fighting skill, but for anything else, they would have to go through Espen.
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Post by Roan Varangr on Mar 24, 2021 21:34:01 GMT -5
Roan was thankful that his brother stopped in often injuries aside. He was thankful to have someone willing to defend him even partially. While his adoptive mother and father had both been caring and supportive there was a charm to having someone a little closer to his age come to his aid. It was often Espen that made sure Roan wasn't ribbed too thoroughly by their other siblings long before their parents. A small nervous smile played on his lips "I know you will." He took a glob of the herbal goop and smeared it on Espen's wound to both stay the bleeding and disinfect it. "For that I am always grateful." He couldn't do more for his brother than tending wounds and lending an ear but if he could then he would . "tomorrow will be a big turning point....one day perhaps Lise will feel as we do." It was an eternal cycle of children trying to live up to the legacy of their parents. As he reached for bandages to wrap around Espen's torso he added more softly "I'm sure...she...would have been proud to see you recieve the ceremony." He said in way of acknowledging Espen's lost partner. They may not have been formally recognized but it was obvious how much of a toll losing her had taken.
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Post by Espen Varangr on Mar 24, 2021 23:17:07 GMT -5
Roan didn't given him time to prepare for the direct contact and he grunted and gripped the chair. "You're welcome," he hissed. He realized it only partly made sense but it was either that or swearing to distract from the brief pain inflicted in the name of healing. Espen was used to it by now, but it didn't keep it from hurting in the moment.
Tending to wounds and talking and listening was quite a lot. He didn't feel his brother needed to do more, but he did appreciate him. Even if he didn't always say so publicly as much as he could.
He raised a confused eyebrow. Lise would feel the same way how? It took him an awkward moment to catch up to what his brother meant and then the pieces seemed to click. "Oh..." he honestly hadn't even thought about the shadow he cast. For Jesper or Lise but especially his daughter. "With any luck, I'll die long before she has a chance at being an Elder so I won't get in her way," he teased half-heartedly. He didn't really mean it, but he did want to give his children their best chance to succeed.
Espen became a lot more somber and serious at the mention of Astrid. For a moment, he didn't say anything, simply held his breath while Roan wrapped his torso. "Actually..." he said thoughtfully and then chuckled. "I don't think I would hear the end of the old jokes." He forced a smile. She would be proud. And jealous as hell. And she'd never let him hear the end of how he was as old as his mother or something stupid like that. He didn't like to talk about it much, but he missed Astrid a lot.
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Post by Roan Varangr on Mar 25, 2021 0:03:50 GMT -5
Roan was unfazed by Espen's sudden hiss and clear discomfort. He did tend a lot of patients after all. Even so hearing him talk about passing away early left bad taste in his mouth. He eyed Espen with a stern look. Roan didn't need to be a shaman to know that Lise and Jesper both likely would prefer Espen stick around. His expression did soften as he listened to Espen reminisce about Astrid. While the healer hoped that Espen's heart would heal with time he also hoped that Espen didn't drink himself into a coma before then. "I am sure that Atrus and Astrid both will be at the ceremony in spirit." He finished wrapping the wound up and slid a jar toward Espen. "Now then, rub some of this on your bad leg. Can't have our bright new elder limping all the way to the standing stone."
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Post by Espen Varangr on Mar 25, 2021 0:35:15 GMT -5
He was a little busy hold back another groan and swearing under his breath that it took a moment to notice the look. It reminded him an awful lot of their father. While Espen hardly distinguished between Roan and his blood siblings, now was one of the times he wondered if he was the adopted one. Atrus made that face all the time. Espen certainly couldn't pull off stern half as well as Roan or their father could.
"I didn't mean it like that, I promise," he said, trying to be reassuring. "Not trying to orphan my own daughter." He wasn't worried about Lise not having a supportive family without him. Between Roan and Eira and mother and half the tribe, there were plenty of people to look out for her. But he valued his family and the time he had with his parents and he wouldn't take that away. Hell, he might not be the best father but he did love the girl and wanted to spend plenty of more years with her. "Jesper probably wouldn't mind though," he added as a poor joke. He was on a roll tonight, apparently.
Espen nodded at the thought both of them would be there in spirit. There was some small part of them that lived on in the people they touched and the places they visited. Especially at a place like the standing stones. He inspected the bandage work and then pulled his tunic back on. He'd have Eira clean it and mend the hole later. For now, it was a bit cold.
He laughed slightly, taking the jar and sniffing it, wrinkling his nose in distaste, as if expecting it to smell different than the last time. He narrowed his eyes at Roan, almost asking how he knew, but then he supposed he just did. That or he had watching him walk here. He leaned down to tug his pants down and massage the balm into his knee. "Bright and new, eh? That a challenge? You want to race me there, little brother? Because no one will take that bet." Not that Roan wasn't fit, but Espen was entirely serious about crushing him in such a competition.
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Post by Roan Varangr on Mar 25, 2021 1:45:50 GMT -5
Roan was glad to hear Espen say he wasn't being serious. He knew that jokes like that could be a double edge sword. Sometimes they were a cry for help. It wasn't easy for Lutrians to openly and honestly tell him about an emotional struggle. Emotions were soft things. Luckily he did trust Espen to love his family enough to not do anything too foolish. It was nice to see the man laughing so easily and he smirked at Espen's obvious dislike of the smell. He couldn't really do anything about it, and if he could he would actually probably make it stink more just to tease the man. "You won't catch me taking on such a bet." He replied with an easy chuckle. Swiftness was probably his one athletics talent but he had never out run Espen. If anything he mostly just wanted to give Espen one less pain considering the carving part of the ritual.
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Post by Espen Varangr on Mar 25, 2021 2:39:59 GMT -5
Roan was right, it wasn't something he knew how to talk about. But he wasn't about to abandon anyone on purpose. If he was, he probably wouldn't joke about it.
"Did you make this smell worse on purpose?" he asked. He hadn't needed to use it in a while and he didn't recall it being this bad. He wouldn't put it past Roan to augment his frequent aid with some sort of prank. Espen usually attempted to handle them with some ounce of grace, considering what he put the man through when they were younger and what many others put him through still. But some days he was less tolerant than others and today would have been one of those days.
Espen wasn't a sprinter. He was an endurance runner. Roan though...the guy was fast. "I think it's just the season, not the weather," he noted. At least, he was pretty sure it wasn't going to rain heavily in the next day or so. He finished with the balm and pulled his pants back on, sinking back into the chair. "There anything you need help preparing? Or something else I forgot?" he asked. He wasn't sure how much Roan wanted to talk about the ceremony.
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